I Liked You Before I Ever Loved You

I held her hand while in the hospital bed sleeping,
Just after her mastectomy;
She woke up silently weeping,
Afraid she might be losing me.

I knew all about her fears and worries;
I tried to give her comfort constantly;
The future, for me, was less blurry,
Every step she’ll be holding hands with me.

I told her:
I liked you before I ever loved you;
I loved you before we said our vows;
I respected you before and long after,
Nothing is going to change that now.

Her smile was slow to be recovered,
But, the twinkle in her eye soon returned;
I knew self-pity for her would not long hover,
That’s not how the flame of her courageous candle burned.

We took long walks on the beach at sunset,
All part of her rehabilitation routine;
We reminisced about a life we won’t forget,
Looking forward to new memories not yet seen.

She told me:
I liked you before I ever loved you;
I loved you before we said our vows;
I respected you before and long after,
Nothing is going to change that now.


Advice for those Awkward Years

If I could converse with my sixteen year old self,
I would encourage him to ask you out;
Not that I ever thought you might ever say, “Yes”,
But I think it might help him to remove all doubt.

At sixteen I had no confidence;
Was running low on self-esteem,
Advice to go out and grow a pair,
Might have been helpful, if not a little bit mean.

Your beauty really intimidated him;
You were out of his league, or so it seems;
I would tell him, “Every boy is probably afraid to ask her out,
Your courage might be the answer to her dreams.”

She might say “no”, if you ask her,
But, she certainly won’t say “yes” if you don’t
And, the other girls will see you differently,
Ignore you any longer, I bet they won’t.

If I could converse with my sixteen year old self,
It might embarrass him and fall on deaf ears,
But it might also be the sage advice,
That helps him get by easier in those awkward years.

That’s Just How This Life Goes

I sat in a bar at the airport
After they finally cancelled my postponed flight;
I was re-ticketed for the morning,
But, had nowhere to spend the night;
My bags had been checked in,
Where they were no one seemed to know;
The waitress spilled her tray on me,
I didn’t have a change of clothes.
The interview hadn’t gone well,
I still needed to find another job;
My esteem and dignity were long gone,
It felt like they had both been robbed.
A tear escaped from my blurry eyes
Slowly rolling down the five o’clock shadow on my cheek;
I knew I shouldn’t feel so damned defeated
But my situation sure was bleak.

Where does an atheist turn to
When your only hope is to say a prayer?
That’s when the barmaid said, “How are you doing, Pal?
You sure look like you’re in a deep despair.”
So, I told her my sob story,
Sowing in a few more woes;
She said, “I sure am sorry,
But, sometimes that’s just how this life goes.”

She said, “I’m off in an hour,
And, I have a bedroom that I can spare;
Just as long as you understand,
This doesn’t go anywhere else from there.”
I said, “I sure could use a shower,
Maybe a washer and dryer, too;
And, I assure you, for your kindness,
I will not be a burden at all to you.
I will not read into this anything more,
Than the extreme kindness of a stranger;
To have me think you’re offering anything more,
I assure you, there is no danger.”

It turns out we really hit it off,
We were good friends within an hour;
By the time I got around to it,
She joined me in a nice hot shower.
I didn’t use that spare bedroom
In the morning I had clean and dried clothes,
Bad days, I guess, can turn out right,
Sometimes, that’s just how this life goes.

I didn’t get the job I went there for,
But, I ended up with so much more;
I knew that in the morning,
When I silently crept out of her door;
Uber took me to the airport
Where I caught my flight back home,
Living in my small apartment,
Never before had I felt so all alone.
Can we maintain a long distance relationship,
Neither one of us really honestly knows,
But, we are going to give it our best shot,
And are willing to see just how this life goes.